James at 17

31/05/2016

One night in 1966, I awoke at 3am to a sensation that resulted in a writing session which lasted a few months. Thereafter, I continued writing as a means of release giving a voice to my teenage angst, feelings which resurfaced time and again over the years.

This was the first outpouring other students discovered on my English Teacher’s desk. They asked permission to use the few that followed in their Printing class-project. I was a new Canadian, emigrated from Jamaica, in grade 12 at Central Technical School…

A Thought

If this frail frame of mine could for all eternity bear,

The heartaches and pain of mankind to achieve for him Total happiness,

I would for such a cause sacrifice myself.

 

The Christian doth say that Christ,

The Son of God, Died for us, and as such, suffered for mankind for all time.

 

I, being a Christian do believe in Christ,

But forever seeing what I have seen,

Hearing what I have heard,

And feeling as I am feeling,

Am deeply moved as to say,

I would forever bear the pain for all mankind.

 

I would bear it alone, in a lonely place,

Where my cries of agony can only be heard By the passing wind, the sun, the moon, the stars,

The land and its dwellers, and me

Where my tears would quench my thirst, and wash my body,

Where the sound of my voice is my only companion, and unusual comforter.

 

This I would do for mankind to make him totally happy,

A foolish thought though it may seem.

This my one desire to end all pain.

Life is cruel, and it’s cruelty I would gladly bear if it were possible.

 

In later years I attempted to ‘edit’ this flow-of-words that came through me. There was so much going on with me then, in adapting/orientating to this country in the 60s, I simply let the words flow and submitted them for feedback. Feedback that came in the form of another excited grade 12 class to which my poems appeared to resonate. I will present a few here, unedited, as I submitted them to my teacher…

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Ideas

11/05/2016

Thoughts playing around in my mind, some from unexpected sources while others percolate from the depths of my mind~   dated and, some sourced…

Ideas

1. After achieving ‘success’, then what? Escape to Freedom…

2. No need for manufactured (human) conflicts/confrontations, I’ve observed, if each is of kind reasoning in assigned situations… 08/11/15

3. Disraeli and the Suez Canal?

4. Cherish those who seek-the-truth, but beware those who-find-it! … 10/11/15

5. During certain times of the day, unexpectedly, I feel there’s too much of this world to bear… 11/11/15 – 05:45hrs

6. Stillwater ~ The Friendly Stranger (nom de plume)…

7. My ‘bio-narrative’ may net alternate/unexpected-varied-retellings (graphic novels/ short stories)…

8. Love, and other Conditionings developed through media-hype where parenting gaps allow… 15/11/15

9. ‘Living by someone else’s choices’/decisions (The Librarians TV episode) 16/11/15

10. Insomnia Theorem~ childhood reluctance to sleep a forerunner to insomnia? Let’s look at this phenomena over the lifetime of the individual, how it impacts on society, the pharmaceutical/medical industries and the business sector on a whole… 06/1/16

11. New Year’s Resolution: listening more, staying in-the-Now.

12.Most every engagement with people, family included, is a teaching opportunity~ whew, the other side to early-retirement!?

13. Be responsible for your own path, and let others be responsible for theirs… 18/4/16

14. To refrain from judging books (people) by their coverings (appearances), I engage in roving/streaming assessments… 03/5/16

15. On Monday, May 9th 2016, I noticed The Universe-at-Work when it sequenced an auto’s right-turn with a cyclist’s northward left-turn at University/Queen W…

16. In The Star, “Shadowy Web of Enablers help the Rich get Richer” -and- “Why is there reluctance to talk about the role of Climate Change and Fires? (including other global dilemmas) -and- “Big Pharma and Doctors relationships”?…  09/5/16

I am unclear as to timing on moving forward, because I’m engaged in other ventures and this list is ongoing. So, let me know your thought, if you have any to share.

 

Conceptualizing

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