Invasive Thoughts




While laying in bed some mornings, having assessed weak areas in this physical form, I wonder at the off-chance an odd Twist-of-Fate may leave me motionless and unable to call for help.


Then, laying here having timely bodily functions occurring, their odours and feel surrounding me in my sealed living space, until investigations from neighbours’ complaints facilitate me being found.


Question is, will it be days-weeks, or longer; and, will I be alive to endure the aftermath processes?


A tip of the iceberg conundrum living alone while growing older amidst privacy and individualism social dogma.


Whatever ensues, I’m making the best of Time being borrowed.




1b. Sunrise 2 - 27.6.16*





After much consternation, and results of many insights shared, some kept within, it is my belief there are those who have realized that we share many common experiences. In these common experiences, there are those choose to help others and those who choose to take advantage wherever possible.


I have accepted the notion that those who choose to ‘take advantage’ of others are Life’s indigenous teachers, some of us surviving/overcoming their lessons while others not.


My concerns are of those who choose-to-help conditionally by which many, like myself, become a member of the walking wounded. It matters not whether their ‘conditions’ are biased for benefit of self/family/friends/socio-economic/political positioning. What does matter are the results of these chosen conditions, because the walking-wounded ‘pay forward their wounding’ reflexively becoming aware if attending to feedback by their behaviour.


Most will, by remaining unaware of the types-of-poison they’re passing on within society, increase harmful conditions instead of the benefits learning/overcoming the choices of those ‘teachers in Life’. Conditions claimed to be ingredients of the belief system deemed, ‘survival of the fittest’ in the apparent self-perpetuating Free Market System!


My question is, how many of us are aware which type of person we are, and are willing to address actions outcomes once realized? The problem is, in our current ‘survival of the fittest’ system, how to survive the onslaught of the pervasiveness of ongoing wounding while distracted by increasingly sophisticated media-hype?


Do you know?



14b. The Aftermath

My Eyes Wide Shut


A  C  C  U  M  U  L  A  T  I  O  N  S


There are times when I take the time to look roundabout me only to notice that all my belongings grew into possessions, to the level of clutter accumulated over decades and I ask my self, “How did this ‘happen right before my very eyes’?


Was I so caught up in acquiescence to requests by others not to notice acceptance was tantamount to blind trust gone awry?


How did this ‘occur’ when there was no ‘intent’ or desire/design on my part to acquire any ‘stuff’, having lived a transient, gypsy-like life!? W T F happened!!?!!


Well, coming to an abrupt turn in the road I have been given the opportunity to take stock and discovered a 30yr collection, which has stories contained within each mound. A herculean task awaits and I must face what has gone unnoticed over decades.


Wish me luck, please.




A K – 13




Oh, what a day that had been! Plans were changed the night before due to needing a less aesthetically demanding day. On the way to an ethnic-flavoured luncheon followed by a matinee movie with a neighbour. My body’s internal heat factor running high, I elected to untie my silk scarf and leave it askance about my neck secure in the feeling I’d be aware of its presence.


As circumstances would have it, conversation and other distractions, I lost track of my sensibilities keeping track. Lunch was had, with varied conversation topics followed by a stroll with an ad hoc search while awaiting the movie’s scheduled time. The day was sunny, clouds slowly moving with promise of fulfilling the rain forecasted.


We entered the theatre, I took the stairs and my friend the escalator. Upon entering our designated purchased auditorium I realized I had misplaced my silk scarf along the way. Too late now, the movie was in previews mode and I began to guesstimate all sorts of scenarios of where and how the loss took place, and my plan to retrace my steps to see if this much complimented scarf will be found.


The film ended, a much needed bathroom break achieved followed by interrupted departure to ascertain IF the scarf was lost inside the theatre and was returned to the theatre’s Lost ’n Found location? It was not. In the rain, we began retracing our steps when I wondered if we ought to check our stroll-after-lunch route, just in case. I doubted the possibility of this scarf being picked up and made available on such a busy thoroughfare, but no stone left unturned, as the saying goes. I was correct, it was nowhere to be seen, much less found.


In the declining rainfall, we resumed our interrupted earlier route, all the while hoping but not expecting to be proven correct in my assumption. The scarf slid off my shoulder onto the sidewalk near a major intersection, was picked up and placed in a visible location if I was to return seeking it. We talked as we walked, keeping an eye out for the act of that kindly soul having done the right thing.


Approaching the major intersection, retracing our earlier route, I saw to my joy and amazement my beloved and much compliment scarf atop a mailbox in a doorway. My friend was also amazed and remarked he would not have known that scarf by my description, and that I was quite fortunate that it was placed out of the rain that fell during the movie. I was pleased that what I had done for others in similar circumstances was done in kind for me.


I continue to ‘pay-it-forward’, gestures beyond what money can buy.








Our ORBITAL representatives have gone into Space returning with an amazing amounts of information. Still our world population is none the wiser and fails to realize we’re all a part of the same ecosystem requiring caring and comprehensive collaboration/co-operation for progressive survival.


Those obstructionists who are unable to appreciate this Planet carrying on with Its holistic evolution ought to ‘get the hell off’ and allow those remaining to engage in these processes towards the Spiritual greatness awaiting!


Just my $0.02 worth.



1. Doreen Burke Palmer- I AM JAMAICA*

a  LEGEND  takes a  FALL


His day began with an impromptu tea ’n chat being sidelined which caused him to cast his mindset net onto possibilities flowing bye. He caught onto an idea and selected to walk in a direction that covered preferred activities of writing, exercise to an agreeable establishment which promised cordial exchanges.


He enjoyed a brisk walk into a kindly, engaging atmosphere. He did the writing intended and engaged with cordial people after commenting on overhearing their adjacent conversation. Looking out onto the street, the numbers of passer-byes had increased in numbers and frequency by their paces. He decided it was Time to depart into the chillier air accompanying the setting Sun.


His returning was to afford internal warmth to ward off the increasing chill of the incoming night air. A bonus for him was to enjoy two women ahead who drew closer relative to his warming pace. There was an interference by an oncoming woman did the ‘who-goes-where’ dance upon bypassing one another to avoid collision.


After their two-stepping and eventual avoidance of collision, there was an unforeseen event brought about by an unexpected condition. The City installed Accessible sidewalk gradients which he failed to adequately navigate resulting in his headlong plunge. Split second decisions were called for as he headed forward at an unintended and unexpected speed.


What was to be elected? Take the fall via self-preservation strategies learned during his decades of martial arts training, or protect the unsuspecting?


You see, opting for any kind of ‘roll’ would result in taking-out the women directly ahead of him, with them unaware of his position on approach behind them. Without Time to consciously visualize the outcome of his fall, a decisive call was required resulting in the women being startled and expressing dismay.


Their kindly concern for his position at their feet sufficed unaware of their averted potential doom. He looked up into kind, caring and lovely faces, and responded in kind explaining his ‘tripping’ process as an aversion of one mishap only to experience another. It appears a fall was in the cards


Undaunted, he looked back onto the woman he side-stepped, her disregard being unconcerned without looking back; he picked himself up, dusted himself off and checked for apparent damages. Finding none, externally, he went on his way feeling the internal aches brought on by his fall.


He proceeded to “walked-it-off as the saying goes”, psychologically preparing himself for the inevitable in the pain department; known and to become known, in the Passage of Time.




Accessibility Fail …





Ever had one of those moments beyond an epiphany, when what is going well appears as what IS, with revelations of actuality seen as inescapable and futile while being all-inclusive?


My apparent experiences, now and again, coming to terms with the actuality of Nothingness.


It’s been raining since last night, throughout the day and into the night-time, and it hasn’t stopped. At least, it’s not snow which definitely is on the horizon.


Synchronistically, the aforementioned is something I found implied in a recent ‘Supernatural’ TV episode, which I seldom watch: S13/E4; as well as, in a few of my other esoteric readings.



6. Walking on the Edge~ FtLauderdale Sun 18.10.17



Fast-forwards, then doubling-backwards, keeps in my mind how my ADHD has best served others within multi-layered challenges in the world of work, albeit unbeknownst to me at the time. 




Appears I’m being left behind with all the digital goings on, and I slip that much further behind as the years pass. So, as you progress, never mind be being farther behind because that’s the resulting consequences of my technological limits.




Harmony and Collective Consciousness, in spite of being desired are feared as shown in subconsciously-biased behaviours/gestures by the rich ’n infamous, alongside their enablers desiring to walk in their shoes, by and bye. 




Speaking factually, I’ve noticed that people often speak to where you are unaware of the processes behind getting you to ‘the when’ of where they’ve engaging you.

Much can be said about resulting conflicts and confrontations! If only this was made apparent, don’t you think we’d be better off? 




In Time…

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